Que raiva!

Sempre fui de 'ouvir' uma canção.
'Sempre', desde que o meu Pai, um dia, quando eu tinha 7 ou 8 anos, me perguntou o que queria dizer aquilo que eu estava a cantar e eu não soube explicar.
A partir desse dia, detesto sentir que não compreendo o que estou a cantar ou a ouvir.

Mas, actualmente, essa mania de não me limitar a apreciar uma melodia leva-me, por vezes, a personalizar o que ouço... a achar que foi escrito por alguém que sofreu como eu.
E, acreditem, lá por alguém já ter passado pelo mesmo, não me oferece o menor consolo.
Que raiva!

"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase"
(Evanescence - "My Immortal")

"What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there"
(Elton John - "Sorry seems to be the hardest word")

"I hope you're feeling happy now
I see you feel no pain at all it seems
I wonder what you're doin' now
I wonder if you think of me at all"
(Skank Anansie - "Just because you feel good")

"I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong"
(Linkin Park - "Somewhere I belong")

E como não podia deixar de ser...
"Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach,
I can see
There's a life out there
For me"
(Gabrielle - "Out of Reach")